Sailing Through Life

I have always compared my life to sailing. I go wherever the current takes me; I'm always open to explore somewhere new. Because of that, I have sipped champagne with kings and queens but I have also been held captive by cannibalistic aborigines. Life has been surreal, unexpected, tragic, exuberant, blessed, traumatic, and lovely. Mostly surreal. Certain circumstances in life has the intense reality of a dream...and I absolutely love that it's that way.

As with most sailors, I have a restless spirit and I can never settle in one place nor with one person or a group of people for extended lengths of time. I have never felt settled. There is too much in the world to ever really stop. The world is like a giant playground and I always feel the need to move......

So here I am, at the age of 22, and I continue to move shore to shore. But I feel that it's time for me to become more grounded and bare with me folks......and settle down.

Yes I said the dreaded 10-letter phrase....I'm not necessarily talking about it in a romantic sense but I'm talking about it in a general sense. I'm ready to stand still and just be. Correction. I do not want to stand completely still, I just want restricted movement. Instead of sailing the icy Pacific on the Titanic which is inevitably going sink, I'm comfortable occasionally chillin on my yacht along the sunny coast.

Carrie Bradshaw said it best in one of the Sex and the City episodes, gals like us are like unbridled horses...we are wild and untamed. But unlike Mrs. Bradshaw, by time I'm in my 30s hopefully I will go from being an unbridled horse to a stud.
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Thoughts on Medicinal Drugs

I went and visited my old journal on livejournal. I was going through some old entries because my cousin has a blog about people's Bitch Is Crazy moments and after reading her blog today I decided to reminisce.....

Oh what a long way I have come....my ongoing journey into womanhood has been a wild and crazy one to say the least. Back in the day I was experiencing a lot of health problems and was on medication....and that shit definitely made me crazy with a capital C. Medications have a way of fixing the problem but causing tons more. Especially when doctors are using medication to guess and check what's wrong with you. If I ever need treatment for health concerns ever again, I will most definitely try to go the most natural route as possible.

In addition, it did not help that I used to smoke and drink heavily while on medication which of course increased the likelihood of adverse effects. When I read my journal during the time I was on medication versus the time that I was not on medication, the difference in my mindset is substantially clear.

From being on different types of medication at different times, I started misusing pills. Codeine for instance, is a highly addictive drug and my doctor prescribed me over a weeks worth of it but told me to strictly make sure I do not take them for over a week. My question to doc: So why the hell would you prescribe me over a weeks worth of that shit? They did not even do anything when you took them, I was just popping them because my body had developed a dependence for a short point in time. And when I ran out of them, I started finding other things to compensate. Hence my inevitable downward spiral into irrationality.

So what's the census on medicinal drugs? TRY TO STAY AWAY FROM THEM!

If it is not Tylenol, Motrin, Comtrex, or the like....I'd prefer something more natural like....

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