Antsy.

OMG!!! VEGAS IS SOOOOOOO CLOSE AND SOON I'LL GET TO SEE MY BABIES!!!

I finally turned in all my paperwork for Vegas, I'm halfway packed, classes are over, and I have one final down with two more to go.....


I'm so excited that I cannot sit still. All I can think about (and apparently write about) is VEGAS, VEGAS, VEGAS! I needed to take a break from studying b/c I'm so antsy. I'm a little nervous though since I'll be on the other side of the country but fortunately, I will not be completely alone. I have a few friends in L.A. and one near San Francisco. L.A. is only four hours away from Vegas so it's all good.

The only bad thing about it is that I'm going to miss my niece and nephews more than ever. I can barely do the whole Pittsburgh thing. If my schedule permits it, I plan on visiting them some time during the summer. I'm having separation anxiety from my babies. I don't even like kids and I'm not much for sentiment but....the love I have for my niece and nephews surpasses any type of emotion that I have ever felt in my life. They are going to be spoiled rotten by time I finish grad school. I love them as if they were my own.

N e ways...it seems as if everyone is making serious moves. My homegirl from back at home hit me up today inviting me to her going away/housewarming party for her move to New York. My other homegirl just got relocated to San Francisco. I'm glad that nobody is staying in Baltimore...leave Baltimore to the hoovers and shakers. That is the LAST place that I want to live when I'm finished school. Any one who wants to stay there is going no where. It's a place for the content. Not to mention, I want to have an excuse to visit people in new and exciting places.

The early twenties is definitely a huge transition period for all the legal hustlers. Everyone is moving all around the country...all around the world. I think that I know someone in almost every state (maybe except for places like Nebraska). The older you get, the smaller the world seems. I have a good handful of friends in other countries also. It's just so amazing....I really never believed that I would get here. I feel as if I could give an acceptance speech and my name has not even been called yet.

Grad school will definitely be the last stretch...I really do not want to go to grad school but I feel that it's necessary. I'm dreading everything about it...particularly the application process. RED TAPE MAKES LIFE DIFFICULT! GGGGRRRR. Most of the things that I do I do because I know it's a necessary step to get to where I want to go and live the lifestyle I want to live...the salary of an MBA is OFF THE FUCKIN CHAIN!

Initially, my top school was Northwestern but I'm reconsidering and thinking about The London School of Business. It's acclaimed internationally. It's like the global Harvard of business schools. Spending two years over seas seems more rewarding than staying in America (I'm getting tired of the U.S. anyways...the values are so ass backwards and upside down). I'll be taking Italian in the fall because it has always been one of my goals to move to Italy. The only problem with going to school over seas is lack of government funding. I'm not quite sure how it works...hopefully it will work in my favor.

Regardless...money may be an obstacle but I'm a hustler and I'm not going to let that get in my way of doing what I'm relentlessly determined to do. I'm going to find a way to make money work for me! I always have and I always will. I'M A SOLDIER. I've already begun to look into applying for fellowships. Fellowships pay out the ass. I'M GOING ALL THE WAY BABY, NO EXCEPTIONS! I'm determined to accomplish every goal that I have set out for myself.

I just hope I can get in the schools that I want to get into considering my previous performance in school was slightly subpar. I did well this semester and I'm pretty sure this pattern will continue....especially since it's the first time that I'm living on campus. The problem is that I plan on applying to grad school this upcoming fall so the only progressive semester that they will be able to see is the current semester now. I'm assuming they will probably defer my acceptance until they see my performance next fall.

I have enough faith in God to know that he will make a way for me. I feel so blessed and I'm mad that there have been periods in my life when I doubted him (we still beef from time to time tho).
Because I feel so blessed, I feel that it's necessary for me to continue to live my life right. I'm taking baby steps but I'm taking them nonetheless. I gave up smokin and poppin pills 2 years ago and I recently decided to give up hard liquor (I'll still drink wine tho). I figured since I'm relocating to Sin City that this was an opportune time to do so. If I can turn down hard liquor in the city that gives hard liquor away for free, then I can give it up for life. Plus, I'm over the whole college drunk phase (I guess I should be considering I should have graduated already).

Once I get my self "settled down", I definitely plan on giving back. To whom much is given, much is required. A friend of mine suggested that I visit Ghana so I vowed that would be the first place to hit.

I'm mad because I will not be getting my 4.0 this semester (sigh). I'll be getting a 3.75 thanks to my photography teacher who is giving me a B since I missed a critique (my alarm did not go off...oh well). Better luck next time. But a 3.75 from a school like Carnegie Mellon is definitely something that I'm proud to accomplish. Because I did so well this semester compared to previous semesters, I finally realized why it's not good to skate by...there is a difference between knowing your shit and knowing your shit. I knew my shit before but now, NOBODY CAN TELL ME NOTHING!


(will finish later...I play to much...I need to get my ass back in the books for this damn exam on Thursday...ggggrrrr)