Another Clarification

It amazes me just how many people show my journal love but......
come on guys....you're starting to scare me. I love all my friends or anyone else who decides to probe the wonderful life of Courtney...at the same time, it's a little weird to me when people call me asking me about my shit on blogspot. I'd rather you leave a comment. N e ways, just to clarify,

1. NO!, Courtney is not in a relationship. The poem was just something that came to mind while I was in the shower. It's not to anyone in particular....unfortunately. I wish there was a special someone but I'm still searching :-( Mister had to go...he irked my nerves to say the least (nice guy but not for me). I am talking to someone but it's in that feelin-it-out-stage. Especially since my books are so far up my ass that I'm pinned to the couch....I'm workin on that 4.0 and so far, so good. I've gotten A's on every single assignment because I have given up my social life...and that includes my fine, sexy brothers. COURTNEY IS ON HER GRIND...ALWAYS AND WITHOUT EXCEPTIONS...Actions speak for themselves, and I'm definitely on the come up....I'm takin as many people as I can, so get on the bus or miss out. It does not matter who you are....as long as you got that hustle in you (and some common sense). I'm not trying to toot my own horn but people, I do know a little something about some shit....trust the words I give to you.

2. Yes, I am really leaving all my lovelies and movin to Vegas for the summer. I will be back in Bmore from March 13th-16th for half of my spring break. The first half I'll be in the ATL. So get at me when I get into town because I probably will not be back in Bmore until Thanksgiving (maybe my nieces birthday in May).

3. I like the fact that everyone reads this, but I would appreciate it if everyone used my blog as a forum to discuss real issues and not Courtney's personal life. Even when I did discuss my personal life, it was primarily to discuss a life issue...or to practice writing. Instead of calling asking whether or not I have a new boyfriend, ask me how you can get involved with your community, leave a comment about an issue that I bring up (i.e. politics, Darfur, etc), ask me about job opportunities if you are in my field, tell me about job opportunities, discuss the field, make suggestions and critiques about my writing, etc..... that is the only reason to make comments about my blogspot....and that is the only reason for my blogspot.

Middle school is over....it's time to Graduate!

I'd Rather Be Home With You

It's been awhile since I have written any poetry but today I was feeling a little inspired....I'm a bit out of practice so hopefully this isn't too bad (it's only a draft anyways):

Home With You

In the dark stillness of the quiet
I lay awake thinking,
I'd rather be home with you.

What difference does a day make
when the tangible that is you
lies far in green miles
where the you that is I
softly slips away into an electric oblivion.

I'd rather be home
on that raggedy, cheap thing
you call a couch
that holds the secrets of our soulful lovemaking...
tracing you
with my frail fingertips

And oh,
how I yearn for your soft, cold lips
to press against mines
spreading fire through my veins
like an expessive bottle of any XO...
the only remedy to this withdraw
next to a pillow,
cold-shower,
or a pack of ice.
How I crave to be home with you.

This compulsion,
this addiction,
is stronger than the rewards
reaped by higher learning...
stronger than the rewards reaped
by exploring the open seas.

It is you who I want to be my new land,
my new experience,
my unexplored place.

I'd rather be home with you
building the life called we
and severe this existence
that is clearly written
in first person singular.

I want to forever be planted,
rooted in your country,
your manhood,
your kingdom
lying in the night
trying to match your breathing
home with you.