"Pretty few people GET me, However so many more WANT to, I think its better to be DIFFERENT then to be forgotten, So i RATHER stand out then blend in, I find COMFORT in the strangest things, Which is why I think all the people close to me are NUTZ"
A Note to My Readers
Chello Readers,
It has been awhile since I have visited and wrote in my blog. I hope that I continue to have fans as I recently removed my blog from search engines.
I have been making a lot of changes over the past couple of months and I feel absolutely fabulous! The main reason for my hiatus is due to the fact that 1) I lack the time, and 2) I have become so much more self-contained and private.
We are a generation that has grown up in the Information Age. Almost EVERYTHING about our lives is so accessible...even to people who live in other countries, thousand of miles away from us. Remember the days before cell phones and the internet? Nowadays, even land lines are like dinosaurs.
Honestly, I have become tired of being so accessible. There are so many people who "care" about your life but only from a distance--from the comfort of an impersonal text message or from their computer. Because everyone's lives are so much more accessible, we have become the age of DRAMA and DETACHMENT. It is like watching a circus--a freak show of people who either crave attention, have no life of their own, or have a need to compete on having a much more fabulous life than someone else.
In lieu of all this, I have decided to completely take my blog into a different direction.
I think it is safe to say that I have lived a pretty colorful life thus far. My life is colored with EXPERIENCE. I have had the luxury of being exposed to the best and worst that life has to offer. The theme of my life is "extremes". When things have been good they have been fuckin awesome and when things have been bad, they have been incredibly dark.
Either way, my life has been pretty heavy...and lately, I have gained a better appreciation toward things that are more lighthearted.
With that said, more than likely, my blog will probably reflect this.
It has been brought to my attention that most people tend to look at things as black and white--it is either my way or the highway, it is either right or wrong, it is either taboo or normal, it is either in or out, it is either real or phony, it is either stupid or smart, it is either beautiful or ugly, it is either a lie or the truth...but, the reality of every situation is that it is all colored in shades of gray. After all, people and life are so complicated even the most simplest of us.
To make a long story short....I'm just lil' ole Courtney.
I'm the most resilient person you'll ever meet but I'm also the sweetest one as well. I'm focused and my biggest pet peeves are nay-sayers. I'm a little person with big dreams. I'm a hustler. Everyday I hustle hard to make it happen...even when I don't want to. My greatest loves are my nephews and niece, food, music, movies, money, and travel.
The world is much bigger than you. Think about others.
"Her manner and appearance commanded respect, but there was always in her bearing, in her voice, a sort of looking forward to some unknown future, as in girlhood. The most insensible man would find himself in love with her, and yet be restrained by a sort of respectful fear, inspired by her courtly and polished manners. Her soul, naturally noble, but strengthened by cruel trials, was far indeed from the common run, and men did justice to it. Such a soul necessarily required a lofty passion; and the affections of [hers] were concentrated on a single sentiment..."
"...she had not a care in the world. A calm virility and a dreamy humor, marked contrasts to her level-headedness into these moods she slipped sometimes as a refuge. She could do the most prosy things... yet immediately afterward pick up a book and let her imagination rove as a formless cloud with the wind. Deepest of all in her personality was the golden radiance that she diffused around her. As an open fire in a dark room throws romance and pathos into the quiet faces at its edge, so she cast her lights and shadows around the rooms that held her..."
- This Side of Paradise
Star Weather Forecast
August 28, 2010
With the Moon in Aries all day, we're motivated by a strong desire to start fresh. A gut instinct to start something new is with us now, as well as the gumption to do so. Our pioneering impulses are strong, and we feel energetic, spontaneous, and enthusiastic. We may also be tactless and impulsive now, particularly in the hours surrounding the Moon's opposition to Aries' fiery ruler, Mars, exact at 12:09 PM EDT. Tempers may be quick, but tend to blow over quickly, too. We can also experience sudden and intense passions for something, but these feelings might also subside quickly. Excess energy is best channeled into physical activity.
Pick Up A Book: What I'm Reading
The House of the Spirits Isabel Allende.
The story details the life of the Trueba family, spanning four generations, and tracing teh post-colonial social and political upheavals of the Latin American country they live in. The story is told mainly from the perspective of two protagonists (Esteban and Alba) and incorporates elements of magic realism. The novel contains magical elements and illogical scenerios that appear in a realistic setting.